Brand X

So I'm stuck with the feeling I'm in some sort of Independant movie. It may be that was what I out earlier at dusk with the shins playing, but it got me thinking. When did I become the Brand X of human beings? I don't want to go into my I don't have friends rant because I do. I just hate being on the end that is always trying to reach them. On that thought though I was thinking about Jake's recent unholy union to his new wife. What will he do when they have two kids and he finds that she has no valid opinion on anything, they have nothing in common. What I want in a woman is someone I can relate to. Someone that I have similiar interests with. That would be pretty sweet so when we find that the love isn't so hot that day we can fall back on those interests be good friends when we can't be great lovers. But when I find those qualities we end up friends and I find that my chance at a relationship is then killed. That brings me to the Brand X idea. I'm the less popular choice of single men. I am the Brand X.

Lost

I feel so terrible lost. I can only wonder if there is anything left. I'm a prisoner of my own fears. Its been monthes now and nothing has happened to me. Some would say thats good. I'm not one of them though. No unique perspective on a situation. Will I ever finally open the prison cell and let myself out?

Echos

I figured this is once again a place I can hide my thoughts. Last night I had a dream that was rediculous. It was a show we, the toy soldiers. were performing but the venue owner loathed the toy soldiers, so he made sure our set was crippled. It was very strange indeed, I was wearing a gorrila suit and acting quite apey. Brandon schulte and matt renaud were there and they were with Elisha was really weirded me out. Half way into the set she starts macking on this guy named scott. I don't know scott I don't know how I knew his name was scott but by god this six foot plus blonde haired boy's name was scott. Did I mention we opened for the epoxies? I hate the epoxies.

Its funny from time to time I still think about elisha, about how much I cared when she didn't, I don't dislike her for it. In truth I wish she could of seen things my way. I try to keep thoughts like that fleeting though.

I think I have picked up a luxury problem. Yesterday, I bought a new cell phone, today I bought a new hdtv. I hope I get the rest of my accident settlement next week or rent and bills are going to be a bit rough.