We Know Drama

Haven't you heard? Long blog titles are out this year.

I have many thoughts in my head, I hope that this may be somewhat coherant.

This weekend Elisha and I headed up to denver to see Bright Eyes with the Faint. We had to pay a scalper $200 for two tickets, and it was well worth it. I enjoyed the show very much, but I'm not sure if it was because of the bands. Elaborated later! We were staying at brandon's house in Laramie thanks more so to Brian, who I never really knew but now I feel that he is a very good friend and I hope to hang out more with him. Elaborated Later!

Anyway we decided to get our party on when we got back to laramie and it turned out to be matt's 21st so Happy b-day to him. Since we didn't get back until like 2 am we called brian who got my beer and her booze. We got drunk and Matt kept telling everyone how he loves me. Had no idea but Matt you're a cool dude. Anyways night start wearing down so I thought bed time was in order. I got bummed out that lisha was not coming up and she ended up making out with a certain person that I'll leave on her mind BWAHAHAHAH, elaborated later!

The next day we went to lunch with brian and he talked us into staying another night. It turned out it was this kid Dixon's 21st so we went over there for a couple hours and played some drinking games. Fun was had for all.at midnight we were supposed to head to this bar downtown, but I ripped a whole in my pants so I had to get a change of pants. When we headed down to the bar there was a line outside! So, we made the decision to say F Dixon's party we're going to a different bar. We ended up at this place called Mingles, just Brian, Libby, Lisha, and myself. Mingles is more really clean pool hall more than a bar but it was rad. While drunk I decided to tell lisha that I'm really starting to crush on her so heads up. Well It really was more of me trying to say Don't make out with anyone tonight please unless its me. But I didn't want to say that. Either way she said she would tell me if I push anything too far. Well midway into the first game the girls go do something no idea what. Brian turns and says he thinks lisha thinks I'm fly. seriously.

Elaboration time:

I explain to him that I don't think so. The night before she briefly made out with someone else. We're just friends who cuddle sometimes. He said hes been through that before and said its cool, but told me not to just think of her strictly as a friend because it was stupid to limit myself there. I explained that yeah I know how it that is but I know she doesn't want a relationship right now, we talk about this alot me and her. and then they came back and pool resumed. There will be more elaborating later. We men won two games and ladies won two. After the bar closed we headed home for more drinking. After many hours she passed out and I actually carried her upstairs to the bedroom, nice gesture not so much fun in practice. 40 minutes later shes is awake and back downstairs...BUTT! Anyway at this point its just me, her, and mister last night casanova! I refused to leave them alone. Thats just what I do. He started talking about his experience with absynce. After the story she looked at me and said she wants to maybe try it sometime this summer. My broke subtle meter in my head wanted to believe there was some under lying meaning there, but its broken and makes things up all the time. Finally we go to be, next day, today we get up eat lunner and drive home. Exciting right?? Well just wait for the next gripping very personal getting my ass kicked paragraph.

Lisha, I really want to be honest to you but I can't do it face to face sober. I'm not just recently crushing on you, this has really happened when we first really talked. I'm far to shy to say it. I miss really cuddling with you. Sleeping with you(just sleeping folks) I love when you snore and roll over and lay tightly against me. Today when you had you're hair pulled back, I thought you never ever looked more beautiful. I don't cut my hair because you said not to, I haven't shaved off this stupid mustache because you said not to.I wanted to invite you in my home when we got back to casper but I knew that you needed to get home to douglas. Worse this morning I wanted to wake you with a kiss, but thats a death wish I'm sure. When I say I love someone I mean that they mean more to me than my life itself. I doubt you think of me like this, and I know you don't want a relationship and I'm resigned to that. This rant and these feeling will fade over the course of our friendship but I had to let them out for now. Even if you were interested I wouldn't push, I need to be pulled. Thats how I am. I want to let all the ladies hear this now, If you like me, love me, whatever, you need to tell me I don't do subtle. Hopefully lisha will read this be understanding and just slap me and say snap out of it. Right now I can't go without her because she is fixing me in ways she'll never know. With her by my side I'm unstoppable, and I am strong. YIKES I'm going to far now. Anyway lisha you're my friend and I know that. I'm also sure that you need a break from me after the long weekend but I'll see you when I see you.

Chris