Deep thoughts...

last night was the first time in a long time that I spoke to anyone about heather in depth. She will always be a piece of me and thats cool. Moving on doesn't mean forgetting, its about learning growing and etc. I have this problem still though. Hahaha umm I wish I could see that somehow that she still once in a great moon thought about me. You know, that way I feel like I meant, mean something. But why should it matter, I know I mean something when I think about it, Alice still let me blabber on and on and I mean I haven't even actually seen alice with my own eyes for YEARS. Dear god I really do need to visit her. Peter wants to go up to Omaha at some point since he will be attending school up there next semester but I would much rather visit alice on my own accord. I have so many different aspects to my life and I have a really hard time making sense of them all. I have Alice and she is an aspect of my life un to herself. I have lisha, heather, and the others that are yet another aspect. The guys etc.... I really am too childish to try and letting all these aspect work and exist together. I will eventually grow up and maybe work that out but for right now I have some comic books to read.